She touches her fingers to his for as long as he will bear them, ‘Hey, I meant to tell you earlier, Poppy painted a picture at nursery today.’
‘You peddle words like they would call him back,’ he shuffles on the path, white slippers catching at the stones, ‘but he is set free. Why would he return to the wasteland of your suburbia?’
‘She said it was you,’ she smiles anyway, ‘and actually, I can see where she’s coming from, in a primary, dribble down the paper with a blunt object kind of way.’
‘Where do you want him? Where is he in this?’ he smacks the palm of his hand into a long scar that cuts through his hairline, ‘Where is he in this utopia of you?’
The wind stirs up the bones of empty trees. She stoops, picking up a silver remnant, another bastard reminder of that November night, ‘She even gave it a title, A man with seagulls.’
He pauses, tilting his head to catch her words and her breath is burnt away in the sweet of his familiar. He leans in, conspiratorially, ‘Man, men, mice, a misplaced piss, a strange choice of water bottle and they rapture, they have no idea that it’s really them who run on the wheel.’
Grief, vicious at her flesh. Even the scent of him has been sanitised away, ‘She wanted me to give it to you…’
‘They don’t know that the cage has bars on the inside. Locks on the inside. They are the caged, they are the rats,’ he laughs, spinning away from her, stumbling as his slippers lag behind with the stones, ‘they are the watchers, watched.’
‘But they say you can’t be trusted with anything,’ the bullets still ricochet, ‘…not even your daughter’s painting.’
‘You’re not welcome here you know,’ he stumbles again, ‘he won’t tell you, but you make him sick. Sketching out Foucault in the charcoal of your conformed normality. You make him vomit.’
The madness of mankind had scattered his sanity. And now it seemed that all the king’s horses and all the king’s men couldn’t put him back together again. Tears can burn like anger in the meaningless. In the desolate. She closes her eyes and feels them die away, ‘I asked the staff if they would put Poppy’s painting up in the main corridor instead.’
He turns, stooping, whispering back through her words.
‘And then everyone who sees it will remember that the world isn’t ready yet,’ she watches him curl, twist again into winter, ‘not for a man with seagulls.’
This sent me a chill, for personal reasons. That having been said, this is great work.
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It took me a long time to post this. I knew that I had to tread gently, that I had only brief moments of experience to draw on… That I have so little right. But it just wouldn’t rest easy in my drafts folder.
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It needed to be posted and read. Sometimes those things we fear to share are the same things others can identity with, usually to our surprise. (That’s my experience, anyway.) I didn’t dance and sing a merry tune whilst reading, but I was glad that I read. 🙂
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Thanks, mate. The closer we get to the human in us, the more sensitive it feels.
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“the bones of empty trees” Lady, I love you and your beautiful wordsmithing.
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I love the word wordsmith! It feels all mythical and ancient n’stuff.
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Such an excellent writer Jac. Not good, not great -excellent.
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Tammy, you stop my thoughts with your words. Here and now there is just coffee and friendship. Thank you 💕
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I’m so glad! And me too, coffee and friendship (Icon- Cup and heart) hehe, I forget how to make all that stuff.
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Haha,☕️💕 luckily, I have an iPad, and subsequently an icon for every occasion 🎈
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I love this Jac. Beautiful and tragic, and so gently and wonderfully put together ❤
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Thanks Ana, gentle was the order of the day.
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Well that’s iconic 😛
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😂
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You write so beautifully, presenting the fragility of life, perception and the human mind gently wrapped in your wonderful writing.
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Ash, you always push me further along these thought processes. Fragility of life, perception and mind – it’s interesting that there are no pain receptors in the brain and yet so much pain is generated there.
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That was awesome. The slippers he was wearing, the clue right at the beginning: it took me a few more paragraphs to realize why he was wearing slippers, in a way that gave a perfect ‘ah-ha’ moment. I really enjoyed this.
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I’ve just checked out your blog. We need to have literary babies together because, dang.
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I’m happy to finally be finding some community
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Yep, WordPress is pretty damn great at community.
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